Author: Gypsy Joi Creations

Hello friend. I'm Cassie: a writer, artist, mother, wife, grief/loss survivor and a woman who has experienced Adenomyosis, Endometriosis I live with Pudendal Neuralgia and Myofascial Pelvic Pain Syndrome and complex Chronic Pelvic Pain conditions. I would love nothing more than to see you turn your pain around. I’m honored if my blog posts help people/woman work through the terrible things complex pelvic conditions inflict. It’s been the light in my darkness to write about my own experience and navigating my diagnoses and journey. You being here means everything to me. Through my free content, and anything else I do here, I'm in this for support and to show kindness and encouragment. Back Ground.. It was supposed to be a wonderful and amazing journey into motherhood the way it feels when you work so hard towards the goals you set as a young woman, a season in which I craved to be a mum. That's when I had my first profound loss at 16 weeks gestation, holding my palm sized baby in my hand after going through labor and birthing my angel baby, a soul that was connected to me and my life force. I wanted to crawl into a hole and disappear. I was diagnosed with an incompetent cervix and required three surgeries with each pregnancy to keep my unborn children safely inside with each one becoming more painful. I lost three pregnancies during trying to conceive and at different gestations and conditions. My journey from there was one of loss and gain and experiencing life changing diagnosis's surrounding Chronic Pelvic Pain (Endometriosis, Adenomyosis, Pudendal Neuralgia, Myofascial Pelvic Pain Syndrome, Major and Minor Surgeries and Many Procedures) because of trying to conceive and having my own children and the aftermath with complex conditions/diagnosis’s. I lost my mother who was resilient as a rock and my biggest supporter, my best friend, to stage four stomach cancer in 2022 and had two major pelvic surgeries either side of losing my mother, this caused me immense grief, it was deep and profoundly changed my world. The grief and loss affected me on so many levels physically, mentally and forever changed me deeply as a young woman. This is where I discovered writing and voicing my experiences becoming an intricate part of me and keeping it inside wasn’t working for me. I wanted to collapse into a heap over my experiences and this was a way to keep my head above water and find a community of woman who needed to hear my story or feel like they weren’t so alone in their grief. Moving into 2024 I have made it my goal to create a career in working with woman in woman’s metal health by studying my diploma in counselling to give myself a steppingstone into this area of women’s mental health. I also have my blog to write my thoughts and experience with Chronic Pelvic Pain and life. My world had been shaken, my life flipped upside down and here I am “IM A SURVIVOR” writing gave me the courage to lean in. To stand in the storm and breathe through what hurt. No running away, no feeling better right away. I tried to face it with grace. Nothing has been so hard, so terrifying. So obviously, I learned some things. I learned that you can be afraid and brave at the exact same time. Some wounds are meant to hurt. If you let it, the pain wedges you open, so that new things can get in and something else can come forth. In the hollowed-out place where your life used to be, starting again is part of the medicine. And part of my evolution. The way you heal can be remarkable if you allow it. You can make changes, connections, art, beauty. You can take what you’ve been given and give back differently. You can love people better, even the people you don't like… including yourself: because deep healing is brave work. Love is always relevant. You rise from trauma by rooting in love, right where you are, scars and all. Me? I believe words have the power to bring you from cold to warm, lonely to held, lost to available for a long, deep breath. It's how I choose to love. It's also why anything from self-expression in my art to writing makes me feel things. Creating is love, especially when it fires your soul. Creating art on your own terms feels like love. Speaking up about important issues to you - the power is real. Loving yourself and loving each other... it's kind of the same thing. I learned that it’s OK to feel your pain. but laugh and be silly again. That even after such terrible things, it’s still your turn to breathe. It still is. Thanks for being here. In every way, I mean that. Cassie Tansey - Writer, Creative Artist, Loss and Grief Survivor, Chronic Pelvic Pain Warrior.