“Some days I don’t have enough energy for today, so I borrow it from tomorrow and my body pays the price.”
There’s something people don’t understand about living with chronic pelvic pain and endometriosis.
We are constantly borrowing energy from tomorrow.
Not metaphorically.
Not emotionally.
Physically.
Every single day.
Because when you live with a body that is inflamed, exhausted, and fighting itself from the inside out, the energy you need to function today often doesn’t exist.
So you take it from tomorrow.
And tomorrow pays the price in a twisted weird way and for those of us running on limited physical energy when you have to push yourself hard on one day you feel it the next mostly hence borrowing from tomorrow.
Most people imagine chronic illness as something that comes in waves a bad day here, a flare there, then recovery.
Endometriosis doesn’t always work like that it can be 24/7, for many of us, the pain is not occasional It’s daily.
Deep pelvic pain that radiates into the lower back.
Nerve pain that runs through the hips and legs. Inflammation that makes your abdomen feel heavy and swollen.
Bladder pain.
Bowel pain.
A nervous system that feels like it’s constantly bracing for impact.
Even basic bodily functions can become events your entire day revolves around. Do you feel me?
Things that are automatic for most people going to the bathroom, sitting comfortably, walking normally, balancing yourself – can trigger waves of pain that leave your body shaking and nauseous.
And yet… our worlds keep on moving forward.
My Children still need breakfast.
The school run still happens.
Work and Study still exists.
Laundry piles up.
Dishes wait in the sink.
Endless Appointments must be kept.
Life doesn’t pause just because your pelvis feels like it’s on fire.
So you do what so many women with endometriosis quietly learn to do.
You override your body
You silence the alarms your nervous system is sending.
You push through pain that most people would consider unbearable because the truth is simple:
There is no alternative.
When you have children, responsibilities, or “a life” you refuse to abandon, you don’t get the luxury of stopping every time pain says stop.
So you borrow energy from tomorrow.
You push yourself through the school run even though your pelvis is throbbing. Drive to a friends or drive to the shop just drive in a flare its sometimes unbearable.
You clean the kitchen while your body trembles with fatigue.
You smile in conversations while silently counting the minutes until you can sit down.
From the outside, it looks like you’re coping.
But what people don’t see is the cost.
Borrowing energy comes with interest.
And the body always collects that debt.
Tomorrow might arrive with crushing fatigue that sleep doesn’t fix.
Your muscles feel weak.
Your pelvis aches before you even get out of bed.
Your nervous system is hypersensitive to everything movement, pressure, even the simple act of sitting upright.
Sometimes your body trembles from exhaustion.
Sometimes your vision blurs from pain.
Sometimes the inflammation is so intense that even existing feels like work. In those moments, a cruel thought can creep in:
Why can’t my body just handle life like everyone else’s?
But that question comes from a world that doesn’t understand what endometriosis actually does to a body.
Endometriosis is not “just bad periods or cycle sync.”
It is a full body inflammatory disease.
It can grow on organs, nerves, ligaments, the bladder, the bowel, and deep inside the pelvis. It can create scar tissue that binds organs together, disrupts normal movement, and causes constant pain signals.
Your nervous system becomes sensitised.
Your muscles brace constantly.
Your body lives in survival mode.
And yet, women with endometriosis are expected to function in a world designed for healthy bodies.
We show up anyway, We attend the appointments, We advocate for ourselves in medical systems that often dismiss our pain, We raise children, We work, We create, We support other people while silently navigating bodies that feel like they are constantly constant.
This is the invisible resilience of women with chronic pelvic pain.
Not the kind of resilience that looks inspirational on social media.
The kind that looks like lying on the bathroom floor after pushing through a day.
The kind that looks like heating pads, medication, and trying to regulate a nervous system that has been screaming for hours.
The kind that looks like quietly cancelling plans because your body simply cannot pay the debt today.
The truth is, living with endometriosis forces you into a strange relationship with your own energy.
Every decision becomes a negotiation its something in the quietness of our minds.
If I do this today, what will tomorrow look like?
If I push through this pain, how long will the flare last?
If I rest now, what responsibilities will pile up later?
There are days when the calculations work.
And there are days when the debt collector arrives in full force to
The deep fatigue.
The shaking/ trembles.
The pain that spreads through the pelvis and back like wildfire.
The flare from hell.
The emotional weight of knowing your body needs rest but your life is still demanding more.
But here’s something I wish more women with endometriosis understood:
Borrowing energy from tomorrow is not weakness. It is survival inside a body that is constantly under attack.
It is a mother showing up for her children when her pelvis is screaming.
It is a woman refusing to let disease erase her identity. It is quiet courage that most of the world will never see.
And slowly (often painfully) many of us are learning something else too.
Rest is not failure.
Rest is not laziness.
Rest is not giving up.
Rest is repayment.
Rest is how the nervous system resets.
Rest is how inflammation settles.
Rest is how tomorrow’s energy slowly begins to rebuild itself.
So if you are a woman living with endometriosis, chronic pelvic pain, or any invisible illness, and today you feel like your body has nothing left to give…
Please hear this.
The fact that you are still here, still trying, still navigating life inside a body that demands so much from you…
That is not weakness.
That is extraordinary strength.
Some days you will borrow energy from tomorrow.
Some days you will pay it back.
And some days, the bravest thing you can do is stop borrowing altogether and let your body rest.
Because surviving endometriosis is not about proving how much pain you can push through.
It is about learning how to live inside a body that deserves compassion, patience and care even on the days it feels like it has completely betrayed you.
And if no one has told you this lately queen…
You are not dramatic.
You are not lazy.
You are not weak.
You are a woman navigating one of the most painful and misunderstood diseases there is.
And the strength that it takes every single day to show up, is something the world is only just beginning to understand.
And if you are reading this while sitting with a heating pad, or lying in bed because your pelvis feels like it’s carrying the weight of your entire body or reading this humbled you feel heard.. please know this: you are not weak for struggling with something this relentless.
Endometriosis asks women to endure pain that most people will never fully comprehend, while still expecting them to function, care for others, and keep life moving forward. The fact that you are still here and still fighting even advocating for others or yourself, still hoping, still showing up in whatever way your body allows, is a form of strength that rarely gets recognised. So on the days you have to borrow energy just to get through, and on the days your body demands that you rest and repay that debt, give yourself the same compassion you give everyone else. Because surviving endometriosis isn’t about proving how much pain you can tolerate.
It’s about honouring the incredible resilience it takes to keep living, loving, and existing in a body that asks so much of you.
Cassie xox
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