Ive lived through my darkest moments of my life these past few years and in a way I felt broken and that there was something wrong with my make up my mind. Everywhere I looked people where searching for healing, doctors, phycologists, spiritual healers, Natropath’s even trying to find ways to deal with their struggle through social media.
In this perception it makes you feel like your broken and need fixing, which created a lot more self-doubt, self-judgment and insecurities about how Im dealing with life and my situation. I needed to look within sometimes 90% of the time our answers lye their inside ourselves.
You are here because you’ve found yourself on this journey as well and you are looking for any sort of guidance and support to feel uplifted and empowered as you continue to walk this cryptic kind of path, I am just starting my journey I told my partner its like being blind folded walking through a dense forest relearning and moving towards healing, its hard to express how your going to begin you have an innate sense of what you need to do to be the best version of yourself.
You have to put trust and faith in yourself that the universe will guide you intuition will find a way, signs point you in the right direction.
But are we willing to listen to your authentic inner knowing?
I am going to share my views of healing, why I believe healing doesn’t mean you’re broken, it actually means that you are shedding layers of yourself you don’t want or need, feelings you don’t resonate with anymore in the present and thats perfectly okay you are perfectly imperfect and thats fine lean into your vibe/intuition trust it.
Whether you are new to your healing journey or not, I believe seeing someone else’s perspective can be beneficial to better understand your own healing.
Beginning to understand my shift to heal one small step at a time
With healing there will always be small bumps in the road, going backwards sometimes and finding your feet again but the most important thing is you have a goal a vision a feeling of where you should be. You can pick up again and keep going
One of the biggest reasons why I knew I needed to begin healing is because I had a breakdown from suppression of grief from losing my mother and going through a-lot of heavy things after her passing it created layers, what I was dealing with at the time of her loss and how it didnt give me the opportunity like everyone around me to process my grieving at the time, noone can compare their situation to yours and your journey our grief journeys are our own and its unique to me how it made me really feel the reality of it all how it affected my world, its been nearly two years and my life is starting to shift and this grief is catching up on me.
Christmas day I realised this I felt numb and low it was unshakeable and I was not coping in these feelings I was scared. I wouldnt speak aloud about freely its not a day to day discussion people have it but Im happy to write it down in this blog if it helps someone else to heal. The pain I felt was burning in my chest and I was so vunerable in my state I was in because I felt lost so lost and broken
Awareness of needing to heal from what your going through is like beginning to shred away the layers to make break throughs to the other side of your situation.
Healing is hard, and it’s worth it every time!
The Difference Between Being Unconscious & Conscious to Your Patterns
Healing is the process of becoming conscious of the unconscious patterns that are exhibited and can become obvious in your life.
Without getting into all of the details of why as people we become unconscious of certain patterns or how these patterns are created, it’s the basic idea that our Ego is trying to protect us from what it believes to be unsafe.
What are unconscious patterns?
Your unconscious patterns are different thoughts, beliefs, emotional reactions, and habits or behaviours you carry that have become a in-depth way of living for you. Often times these unconscious patterns are actually detrimental to your evolution because they keep you stuck in a state of fear.
As an example, I carried an unconscious pattern of avoiding what I truly believed in when it came to particular situations (in reality not advocating for myself out of fear). For a long time I said I didn’t like confrontation, not realizing this was an unconscious and unsupportive pattern that was holding me back in life and from unveiling the truth by not fighting for myself advocating for what I believe in.
Anytime someone shared a strong opinion that went against my true core belief I stayed quiet and didn’t stand up for myself. I had developed people pleasing tendencies where I would do everything in my power to try and make everyone around me happy because I was terrified of confrontation or projecting my boundaries and truth.
I ended up allowing people to walk all over me for a time and I placed my happiness on the back burner. I slowly lost myself over the years because I was so focused on how others perceived me. This was all happening without me realizing how my choices and actions were affecting me. Meaning it was all happening as unconscious patterns in my life.
What does it mean to be conscious?
You become aware of your habits, thoughts and belief systems that don’t actually support the direction you are wanting to grow in. You realize the way you’ve been living isn’t actually how you want to live.
In my example, I became aware that I was focused on everyone else’s happiness and I was limiting my own happiness. I started to see that I let my opinions and values shift and evolve because I wanted to please the people in my life. I could see that being afraid of confrontation meant that I was insecure and I didn’t feel worthy of standing up for myself.
Once I became aware of these patterns, the thoughts I had, the choices I made, and the beliefs I carried I was able to start to heal. I began to shed the layers of patterns that I had identified with for years because I could see that they were blocking me from being my full authentic self.
“Sometimes the things we use to protect ourselves are the very things holding us back”
Quick Tips for Your Healing Journey
1 – Find a Support System
The darkness and heaviness of healing can feel overwhelming and draining. Walking this path on your own is what will keep you stuck in the darkness for longer than necessary. Having a support system that you feel safe in being vulnerable with is extremely important because it’s how you find your way through the darkness and move towards the light. Whether it’s a best friend, a family member, or even a mentor/healer/therapist, it’s important that you are not moving through your healing journey alone.
Having a few reliable people than a community can be all you need trust is important and knowing you feel safe in those few relationships can help you heal better than a big cluster of different opinions and people.
2 – Find Joy
Being able to bring harmony to your healing journey with pursuing joyous moments at the same time is important. Because healing can be draining, you need to have different ways to fill your cup back up with light, love and uplifting energy. The healing journey is not about only ever focusing on what needs to be healed. It’s about doing the inner work, while also creating joy and fun moments in your life.
3 – It’s Your Journey
Everyone’s journey through healing is going to be unique to the individual. You may have people trying to tell you how to do it or what to do, so remember, take what resonates and leave the rest.
You don’t need to do everything the same way someone else did it. You need to find what works for you and remember this is your journey of discovering your truth.
Healing is hard, but it doesn’t mean you’re broken.
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